Inspite of being born and brought up in Bangalore, I never had an oppurtunity to do an AOL course. Infact, I wasn’t aware that such an organization existed and about the concept of a GURU!
But I guess (because of HIS grace) even my time had come to do the course, while I was at Trichy in Feb 2005. Since then I was regular with Kriya but never had any interest to meet Guruji then.
Although I had gone to Bangalore ashram many times, but I never felt like meeting HIM even once.(as I used to have this belief that all "Living Guru's" are there just to mint "Money " and are "fake")
Well, well HE would not leave you.....
There was a storm in my life in 2006 which ruined me and my family completely.
Shattered...Depressed...No confidence left; I had no hope for improvement and was angry on everyone around!
To escape from all trauma-struck family members, I registered for the DSN course at the ashram in Jan2007. For the first 2 days of the DSN, I was not happy and wanted to run away. I avoided Seva and never felt like attending satsang and also used to bunk sessions......
But the NAUGHTY GURU had something interesting in store for me…
On the 3rd day, I was called on the dias to share the experience of one of the processes.
I went ahead and in front of 175 odd people, instead of sharing my experience, I told "THIS MAN (pointing to Guruji's photo) is just a fake! HE has ruined my life..."
Argh...Everyone was stunned!!After telling this, I just sat down as if nothing had happened!
That evening, as usual, not being interested in attending the satsang, I stood outside Visalakshi Mantap. There was no one around, "Ah,so much peace!" - I thought to myself.
Then something in me changed; I was charged up with energy!
I could feel something BIG, hmm.........a store house of energy.........coming towards me!!
I just went near the entrance of VM and Ahooooo!!!! I saw Guruji walking alone towards me and HE stood next to me, staring at my eyes!!!
I was blank and did not know how to react.....
Then somehow I managed to ask HIM "Guruji, My Life problem....uh..uh.." and I stopped.
HE looked into my eyes, hit my left hand thrice and said,
"Naanu Nodkothini Amma" (in Kannada)
meaning " I will take care of you amma" !
AHHHH! I was spell bound, totally blank!!
I came inside the VM and and sat in a corner; there was no one near me.
HE then, turned towards me and asked " Are you happy?" and I turned around, confused (with my eyesbrows up!!) to see who was HE asking...No one there!!
Again HE asked me"Are you happy?" I did not react...
Then,with a smile,HE saw me and spoke "If you are happy or not, its ok,we'll now meditate" !!!
And that meditation which HE took....I JUST CANNOT FORGET !! IT WAS JUST FOR ME!!
For me to get out of all the depression and anger; out of everything!!From then on.....hmmmm....love for HIM is just unexpressible.I got my GURU.
Cant express in words how grateful am I ......Only tears roll down,with a smile on face...
This experience ,even now is so fresh in my mind!
Jai Guru Dev.... HIS LOVE :-)
